Hiding Under a Tent- 7 Weeks Update

Hello, bump! I can't believe how quickly I got a little pudge bump. Maybe I'm crazy paranoid since I was working hard on making it flat, but here is a pic of what is being pushed up. I'm pretty sure it's more of my organs than it is baby bump (pleeeeeease just be one baby!), but nonetheless, I'm looking a little plump and am hiding it under huge shirts since the family still is unaware:

baby/pregnancy stats:

How far along?  7 weeks! There is a possibility that I'm due around August 10 now. Who knows!? Sometime in August :)
Total weight gain/loss: Gained back the 2 pounds I have lost, but I also haven't gone to the gym lately since I've been watching Cay and Eva (Luke's daughter) for Christmas Break.

Maternity clothes? My Paige Denim pants arrived, as did a few nice and baggy maternity shirts :)
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep: about 8 hours a night plus cat naps throughout the day

Labor Signs: No way!
Belly Button in or out? In

Best moment this week: Watching our kiddos play together. These kids play so well together; I am pumped to see them as "big siblings"!

Miss Anything? wine

Movement: not yet!

Symptoms: a constant headache, some nausea, and FOOD cravings! 
Food cravings: more berries, and once I craved burgers for a 24 hour time period until Luke spoiled me with them
Anything making you queasy or sick:  everything

Anything make you emotional?: Oh, yeah. Lots of kiddo shows, Christmas, and the realization that next year we will have a 4 month old getting visited by Santa
Bump Alert: more like fatty alert
Gender prediction: Girl vibes!
Happy or Moody most of the time: happy
Pregnancy Dreams: A bunch of crazies. One in particular: giant child-eating gnomes chasing our kiddos. I hid Caydon and Eva in a factory by a church, but then the smell of the growing baby sent them our way. It was nuts... and I am not even going to attempt finding it's meaning.

Fearing: this whole ordeal

 Anticipating: not having to hide this giant yet pea sized secret from the world

6 Weeks

I can't believe that Christmas is just around the corner! It reminds me of how quickly time flies... I literally feel like we just had Halloween. It is even crazier to think that next year there will be FIVE of us. Caydon, myself, Luke, and his daughter Eva PLUS our new little bean. It seriously baffles me to think about it. ((I think I am still in the shock stage.. not to mention the emotional wreck stage. I cry over the craziest stuff right now!))

So I am not sure what it is about the second pregnancy... I refuse to acknowledge that my abs might be weaker than they once were, so I am sticking with the fact that my uterus never shrunk all the way back down to pre-Caydon. Though, when I'm honest, it probably is a combination of the two. Anyway, I am already getting a little bit of a bump, or maybe I'm just paranoid because I was so focused on a flat tummy. However, I WAS getting there! I also heard that you start to get something earlier the second time, and with my son I showed quickly, too. So who knows!   Here is a pic! :)

baby/pregnancy stats:

How far along?  6 weeks! I should be due around August 15, 2014
Total weight gain/loss: I have actually lost 2 pounds, even though I am eating like a heffer. I still go to the gym, so I'm wondering if this combined with my body working hard on making baby is creating the loss. Weird!

Maternity clothes? I ordered a pair of Paige Denim maternity pants, but so far have been fine with the belly band and a pair of maternity leggings.
Stretch marks? Nope! I am now applying my "Mamma Bee" lotions and oils liberally
Sleep: about 8 hours a night plus an hour nap a day

Labor Signs: No way!
Belly Button in or out? In

Best moment this week: Caydon approached me, VERY concerned, and brought it to my attention that "You are either getting fat, or you have a baby in your tummy. You need to figure this out!" Hahaha!

Also, Luke texting me asking if I needed anything from the store.. to which I replied "milk" (mom alert!). He ended up getting the milk, plus every type of berry you could think of and pineapple, and then prepped it all. He is spoiling me rotten and I'm feeling quite blessed to have him.

Miss Anything? caffeine, wine, sushi, and deli meat

Movement: not yet!

Symptoms: a constant headache, some nausea, and FOOD cravings!
Food cravings: This baby has a thing for berries, particularly strawberries. I have been eating a ton of berries, strawberry ice cream, and drinking strawberry milk.
Anything making you queasy or sick:  smells. Everything smells so gross!

Anything make you emotional?: Oh, yeah! Someone asked me at Target when my baby is due, and I started sobbing and said, "I'm tooooo early to show! I am just getting fat!!!" Hah!  I also cried driving by a cemetery the other day (I don't know anyone buried there..) and then my favorite character, Christina, on Parenthood fell while puking to chemo and I completely LOST it crying. I did snap at a student for stealing out of my purse, possibly more than I should have. The fact that he stole out of my purse directly in front of me makes me question whether I overreacted, though.
Bump Alert: Maaaaybe.
Gender prediction: Girl vibes!
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy. I am starting to settle with the idea of this little person joining our lives, and Luke has been making me feel pretty secure.
Pregnancy Dreams: Nightmares of me telling my parents. I am praying they respond better than they did 8 years ago...   I also have vivid daydreams of Luke holding this baby that make me melt.

Fearing: telling my family. Still stressed about the lack of insurance ordeal... 

 Anticipating: telling Caydon and Eva. Anticipating Eva coming in to town this week for Christmas break (I am watching her while Luke works and can't wait!).. Also excited to look pregnant and not just fat.

New Little Surprise

I have a new little surprise growing... 

a new baby!

That's right! My body, apparently, does not understand the concept of not surprising me. Both of my biological babies are now complete surprises. With Caydon, I didn't know until I was 9 weeks. With the new little bean, I thought I was dying come 2 weeks. Seriously. I have never experienced fatigue, migraines, and nausea with such fierceness.  I took Caydon on a trip to Disneyland (which actually ended up as a blessing because it was just the two of us... and it was definitely our last mother/son stomp for a good while to come!) where I fell asleep on Finding Nemo twice, and went on the train once around the park... and couldn't get off so we went for a second view of the park because I was so sleepy. The daddy, a few of my closest friends, and my classroom share teacher asked me if I was pregnant, particularly on the day that I was so tired and nauseous that I laid on my classroom floor and slept through lunch and prep. My dear friend and our speech pathologist ended up taking the kids that day so I could go home, and I ended up napping then peeing on a dollar store stick, which produced a faint line. This took me to Safeway, where I bought the new ClearBlue Pregnancy Test that tells you how far along you are (whaaaat!?), chewable Prenatals (seriously, where were these 7 years ago!?) and folic acid.

And... the rest is history. As I post weekly, I am going to answer a few regular q's so here we go:

Pregnancy/Baby Stats:

How far along? 4 or 5 weeks... not sure yet
Total weight gain/loss: maintained so far ;)

Maternity clothes? no, but I did tear my only pair of denims that currently fit (I just lost 46 lbs so nothing has fit currently)  Pop, Lock, and Drop-ing it. *Don't ask.* But, do know that this resulted in my purchasing a few pairs of maternity pants since "why buy new that I can only wear a few more weeks!?"
Stretch marks? Nope! And ordered my Mama Bee creams this morning to keep this going!
Sleep: like 15+ hours a day. I just recently got my energy back... Knock on wood.

Labor Signs: No way!
Belly Button in or out? In

Best moment this week: how daddy responded. I am beyond amazed at how great he has been! Last night, he cleaned my kitchen floors and made me dinner while I slept (and you can bet that I did NOT ask him to do that... I think I actually recall telling him not to. He's too sweet!)
Miss Anything? soda and caffeine! I cut out both the day the test said baby...

Movement: not yet! unless you count gas bubbles (sorry, but let's be honest here...)

Symptoms: what I thought was a bladder infection... wasn't (this actually started a few days post conception! WOW, did my body remember!), extreme fatigue, nausea, food aversions, intense sense of smell, back ache, migraine, pulling feeling in my "torso," and my twins hurt so bad I have to wear a sports bra because gravity alone is killing... 
Food cravings: Nothing. At all. Most food I have had an aversion to. Picky baby! But today I did eat pickles and cornbread... together.. a la Joe's BBQ while celebrating my best friend, Ang's, birthday.
Anything making you queasy or sick: meat. food. smells (bunny or stinky students, potluck food, etc.)

Anything make you emotional?: This whole week has been full of emotions. Hello, unexpected. I did cry 7 times during one episode of Parenthood, which is a record but not the first time I have cried watching it hah.
Bump Alert: I just look a little swollen. I think it's way too soon to show, anyway, but then again it is my second... Wondering how quickly I will show this time!
Gender prediction: Girl vibes, please! He wants a boy. My overall goal is healthy baby.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Maybe moody? I have been feeling happy the last few days but cried a LOT the days before that.
Pregnancy Dreams: I dream of Caydon kissing my tummy. I also have nightmares about autism where I wake up in a sweat. ("Man, I can't gain too much weight! Or have too many ultrasounds! Or eat any fish! Or have any soda and caffeine. Or take ANY meds! Or have pitocine! Or have an epidural!" It really is stressing me out.)

Fearing: the fact that my teacher insurance doesn't include maternity insurance OR maternity leave, and I make like $2k/yr too much for AHCCCS. Arg!   I'm honestly also terrified of telling my parents. I know I'm not a teenager anymore, but I think telling them 7 years ago traumatized me. hah! I'm also TERRIFIED of autism. Anything that is possibly correlated is something I have trouble sleeping because of. I know I will love him/her either way, but having a healthy baby would be superb. ((Don't judge; it is just being honest!))

 Anticipating: telling Caydon that he is going to be a big brother! Feeling baby kick, a gender reveal party, telling my friends, baby gear, and looking pregnant instead of puffy. I'm also PUMPED to get back to the gym next week. I'm just going to focus on arms and legs until these pregnancy exercise books I bought arrive, but my body is seriously missing my Bikram/HIIT/strength rotations. I was at the point of working out every.stinking.day and was only 4 lbs away from my 50 lbs goal, and then BAAM! So working out and maintaining that part of me will probably make me feel much less stressed and tired. OH, and I'm excited to meet this little cutie that's been making me so sick! :)